同样的孩子，不一样的命

Went to my uncle's house yesterday. First thing that greeted me were 3 screaming kids, aged 6, 4 and 2 at the doorstep when the door bell is pressed. The gate opened and the kids were jumping around, giving us a warm welcome. It felt so nice to have such adorable kids around, who can brighten up your ever gloomy days if there are any. The children are so happy to have visitors around, because that will mean that they are spared from doing homework for that specific time. The kids showcased their array of toys and books to me. I do not think they are in need of anything, from piano to tuition to toys to ipad, they have it all. They are really very lucky, and I got to admit that they are very fun to play with, especially the youngest girl, so so so cute that i cant get my hands off her.

However, on the other hand, other kids may not be born to be so lucky. Our company held a family day at ASPN Tanglin special school this afternoon, providing the children there an afternoon of games, food, food and gifts that we bought for them. The children there are not born as lucky as you and me. Some of them have lower IQ than average people for their age, some has down-syndrome and others with varying problems that may make them an outcast in a normal society. Some may be 16 year-old, but has a mentality or maturity that of a 10 year old. I had some contact with a 16 year old girl with down-syndrome today, and realized that she is a shy girl in nature. They are happy with simple things that may not seemed significant to us. For example, I gave her some of my nuggets, apple pie and chilli sauces and she seemed happy about it.

Another thing that struck me was what one of the DSTA staff told me when I was talking to the little girl. I only realised today that the staff has a daughter with some intellectual disabilities as she shared some stories with me about her daughter. She said that these kids are very direct in their expression, unlike normal people like us, who will think twice and react according to situation so as not to offend people around us. For example, when the kids do not like you, they will shrug you away if you attempt to go near them, if this happen in the public, people might think that they are weird or unfriendly and give them unfriendly stares. Conversely, when the kids are happy or like you, they may just come forward and give you a hug to show their love and affection for you. However, if such a situation are to happen in the public, the woman who are being hugged will most probably shout molest immediately. This is just one of the many things that she told me. After hearing this, I felt a sudden pity and admiration for the staff, for showing such care and making extraordinary effort to take care of her kids with special needs. No wonder she said her greatest joy is being able to communicate efficiently with her kids.

On top of all these serious stuffs, I did have fun today interacting and playing with the kids there. I must admit I am getting old, playing tele-matches can make me quite tired. haha. really re-lived my days of doing cheers and playing such games. It is really a meaningful occasion, bringing fun and gifts to the children at the end of the day, and seeing the smile on their faces. =)

what am i feeling now? A tinge of disappointment and helplessness, but other than that, looking forward to my new adventure at my new cubicle tomorrow onwards. Sad to say, after getting used to my original cubicle, I have to move to a new cubicle after 2 months. Will miss the squabble and funny bickering between the uncles and aunties.

Changes are inevitable, be it the environment or the attitude of people, I just have to customize to it. I believe I can get along with most people, but there are some that I believe are abit too insensitive to the people around. Making remarks that dosent first go through the big brain. Treating some people as invisible dosent makes you a saint or shows people that you have super sonic eyes, in fact it just portrait you as a arrogant and aloof dude. Yes, some people can get along with you, but that will also mean that they will need to have the same bad attitude as you to be able to do so.

Other than that, people are generally nice creatures. Some are especially nice, who can make my day with simple gestures like a "hello" or message or just a heartwarming smile. Perhaps I need more of such people around me to make me a happier man.

Sleeping is a perfect way to get away from my current state of mind, even if its momentarily, for it keeps me energized for the challenges that lies ahead. Wish for happiness for one and all..=)

Dancing baby

First time dancing in front of 80 odd people. Well, I guess it is a good experience. The people are practically laughing all the way for that 4 minutes of dance. I cant help but giggle while I dance, but I guess the moustache that we wore make it all the more hilarious and we definitely looked dumb. The kids present must be laughing at all the weird big brothers dancing at the front. Even the ah neh working there smiled at us when we dance. It is really 班门弄斧, dancing bollywood in front of ah neh. Simply hilarious.

However, I do feel happy after that, because a cute little baby girl presented flowers to all of us! She is actually one of the daughters of my principal engineer. She is so so so so cute. Everyone is taking turns to play with her and carry her. She is not scared of anybody, and that makes it all the more easier to play with her. She can actually eat alot. She just open her mouth after like 10 seconds for more each time I feed her with some meat from a chicken wing. I really wonder does she know what she is eating, or does she even bite before swallowing. Apparently she is also eyeing my bee hoon and spring roll. Practically, she eats anything, according to her mum. Oh, and she keeps on wanting to take the flower that she gave me too. Haha, She is just so cute, simply adorable! Anyway, I hope some of the photos and videos of us dancing don't get posted on facebook. *cross fingers*

Its the long weekend, but I don't really feel excited about it. Why uh? No idea too.

Perhaps I should be more insensitive, afterall I am the one getting hurt, so why bother?

"Don't expect the unexpected, simply because it will never happen"
"The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese"
"Don't raise your hopes too high, for you may just hit the ground with a bang"

How true are these statements.

Its another one of those days. Good night to me, since no one will read this. -)

Doing some serious financial planning. Savings..insurances..expenditures... How I wish there are more money..haha. Guess there is no choice other than to save save and save more.

A generally sad day. However, made slightly happier by receiving my first pay slip.

Chori chori Gori

Cant believe i will be shaking my butt and twisting my hips to the catchy yet amusing and sensual chori chori gori song..goodness me! Had our first dance session today, I must admit it is fun, a breakaway from the normal working routine. But still, OH MY GOD...I never thought I will shake my butt again ever since mass dance during engine orientation camp, what more during working. Ok nonetheless, I will just try my best and hope everything goes well.

Its friday again. Weekends always seems to pass in a flash. Not to forget, I still need to buy a pair of shoes for casual wear, has been procrastinating for a long long time, when am I going to get my shoes? oh..and some polo shirts too

In life, people come and people go. Some leave traces of happiness while some leave a stench that cant be removed. Learn to be forgiving and lower one's expectation, and one's life will be better. Nobody is obliged to treat you well, if someone does, appreciate it, if not, forget it.

After speaking to some of my colleagues, some things struck my mind and set me thinking about my future. No longer a teenager I am years ago, shouldering responsibilities and other issues start to flood my mind. Its time to think carefully now.

Ok I know this is very random, but nonetheless, it is something that has been bugging me for some time. Oh well, what will be will be, and i think i truly...sadly...suxs.

When people _____ for the ____, you know something is _____. Forget it.

一切都变了

一切和往时都不一样了。明天是一个新的开始，加油，加油！

Inner Thoughts

4 Years pass in a flash and its time again to say goodbye. Within these 4 years, other than the degree that I obtained at the end of it, there are also some valuable friendships which I have found. Some turn out really well, some was well initially but become normal towards the end, some may remain after this 4 yrs, some may just fade away just like the clouds in the sky. Sometimes there are only that much you can do, but it may not seems enough. Things are never reciprocal in reality and its a fact that I have grown to accept. If there is a case where it is, I am real lucky than. I can only control things that I do, but I cant control the actions of others and their thoughts about me. I have also learnt the definition of a "spare tire" and I hope I won't classify myself as one in future.

Nonetheless, I hope to have left a lasting impression (good ones) on my friends whom lives I may have touched/disturbed within this 4 years. I want to say Thank you to the friends who made my 4 years such a memorable one and Sorry to those that I may have offended.

Lastly, I hope everyone will have a successful career in years to come and of course a happy family. Most importantly, I wish for good health to everyone and hope for everyone to stay happy forever. Cherish what you have because you never know when you will lose them. Only than, its too late to regret.

All I want is........

There are many things that I want, but I know it is not possible to have all. Some people have all the luck, all the love, all the attention, and I used to ponder why I do not share such affinity with them. But now, I am willing to forgo everything, in order to exchange for one thing, which is a good health. I already did and I promise to continue doing what I can, so please grant me a good health.

Shall not care so much for anything anymore. #@%$ up. Whatever.

dilemma

u complain when u do not hav any choice..complain when u hav more than 1 choice..ok..i sux.

Sick

Long time since i become so sick. Fever and cough came together and really caught me off guard. I felt so warm, limbs so tired and wobbly, felt like sleeping all the time. Please let me recover soon. Thanks.

Hainan trip

This trip to hainan island really left me with greater insights and thoughts. This is my third time going back to hainan island. The first time was when i was few years old (I only remember chasing the chickens around the house in my village), the 2nd time was in 1998, and this is the 3rd time, which i believe is the most fruitful one, as i believed i had matured over the years. I was touched by the friendliness of the relatives as they welcomed us with open arms. One old relative of mine, held my hands when she first saw me, wa, i v stunned, she treated me as thou i m her grandson. haha
anyway she is my grandma's brother's wife. ok v chim. i shall leave all the identifications aside. haha

What struck me hard was what one of the relatives told me, "No matter where u r in the world, u must noe where ur roots is, thats the important thing. it is good to come back and see ur family once in a while." This really made me think. I hope to be able to keep in contact with them when i grow older nx time. All the time, it has been my grandparents and parents that are doing the ocntacting with my china relatives, i guess nx time its up to me to do it. seriously, my hainaness is half pass six, i can listen but my speaking ability is only bout 40% of their standard. haha. i guess out of all my cousins, mine is the best already, since i m the eldest and i lived with my grandparents since young, so i conversed in hainaness with them. But still, mine still sux. haha. its a pity. generations later, i think dialect is going to be lost as it is v little spoken in spore.

The weather there now is hot. a few deg hotter than spore. It is even hotter in Sanya, that explains the uneven tan lines on my arms, and feet..yes..due to me wearing slippers, can u believe it. It shows how hot it is.



Day 1 at the beach. The sand is so so so hot.


Day 6 at the hotel.

After my trip there, I realised that we should be happy with what we have in spore, afterall, there are ppl with much much much much worse living conditions in other parts of the world. Yes, much worst. So Cherish what u have! Ok i shall show some pictures i took. I cant believe it when i took actually close to 1.8k of pictures..


Day 1 hotel


Interesting descriptions they have in the hotel and of course, items too.

Post korea and pre hainan trip

I miss korea. I miss the times we spent there. I miss the fun we had. I miss the funny things that we did there. I miss the shopping. I miss the BBQ pork. I miss the cool weather. I miss the company i had there. OH WELL..time to move on. I juz hope there will b more opportunity nx time again..yes HOPE is the word..cos i noe its close to impossible..haha

FLying tml to hainan island. Guess it will b a different experience. weather will definitely be hotter than seoul, but its different. Going for a tour after which i will round up my trip with a visit to my village. yes..eager to see how my nephews and nieces look like after like almost 10 yr since i last went back. ok its time to slp.

Excited

One more paper to go. ok i noe of ppl who ended long ago, but still i m starting to feel more and more excited. Partly becos exams are ending and 7th May is approaching. Cant wait to go Korea and play and enjoy with my friends. hehe. I hope it will b a nice and fun trip for all.

ok back to my notes. anyway..I can use the excuse of studying to allow me to watch soccer at nite..yeah..:)(trying to bluff myself againn.)

Nearing the end but the start of a new beginning

Hoho this is the last 2nd official day of sch but apparently I have only been to school about twice for the past 2 wk. Doing my fyp ppt for so long, dragging and dragging. I don't know why, but I seems to have less motivation or rather, less anxious and excited about the incoming exams. I m just too slack. haiz

Went down to sign my contract yesterday. I duno about the working environment but apparently the benefits seems fine to me. BUT the thing is, no camera phone allowed! The HR was telling me jokingly, the ppl there duno wats iphone, and I replied that i juz bought 1. zzzz. Than she told me I can use it as a weekend phone. but i told her i only heard of weekend car and not weekend phone, and she LOL. haha. Ok, now my fate is sealed, at least for the nx 3 years. And I state my 1st day of work to be 19th July. Trying to drag as late as possible, hope I don't regret this decision. (Regret that I should hav started LATER, arghh. haha)

True friends

As you grow older, you may not make alot more new friends, but you start to know who are the real friends around you. People change, just like the weather. Shit happens, as usual.

Yeaa

Just gotten a job offer yesterday. I must say the offer is quite good and somehow I gotten my first choice with respects to the department I choose. Quite unbelievable. I receive the call while I was doing my HR project and I got to say I cant really catch some of what the HR girl told me. haha. But I got to make a decision fast. By next monday. Will I regret my decision? I hope not.

Anyway I hope it is not a April's fool joke played on me. since i receive the call on april's fool day. ARGhh...haha

ARGHHhh

Why is phrasing a simple sentence so complicated? The more i do, the more confused i get. ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrr

exotic prawn

Ok, here is some of the exotic prawns photos found in my lab. Apparently they r quite expensive and it can be eaten! They wanna test the strength and toughness of
the shell at its tail. Seriously, it is quite hard, no joke.













oh well, no matter how exotic, it still looks abit weird to me. I will prefer my normal tiger prawn over this anytime. :)

Long long time

It has been a long time ago since i last blog. So many things happen between than and now, i guess its just life, life is never a bed of roses and its full of ups and downs, just like a roller coaster ride. Hope normality will resume as soon as possible.

FYP is due in 1 wk time and seriously my paper does not look the least professional. Time for more headaches in the coming week. Been to 1 interview today and I just hope for the best. The experience is good I must say, as the more interviews i go to, the less nervous I am. But I do hope to secure at least 1 job sooooooon and not go for too many interviews!

2 more months to graduation. Hoping for a good grad trip for everyone to go together but than again, its never possible for a large number of people to agree on one thing. I am sorry I may have offended a person or two during this planning stage but I guess someone got to take the blame, else nothing is going to be done.

Back to fyp typing. Good luck everyone in whatever you do. Most importantly, stay happy. Always look on the bright side of life!

I have not been very happy for a long time. I hope the day will come soon.

2nd day of CNY

Had an usual gathering at my house with all my relatives. The lau yu sheng was as messy as usual, bits of yu sheng will b flying everywhere, on the table, on the floor, except on the plate. ha.



I think i m too old, but i m definitely trying to catch up with the trend. Apparently korean is the "IN" thing now, korean pop, korean drama. My cousins are korean fanatics, apparently their generation are. They know everything about KPOP, all the group names, the members, songs, mtv, youtube, blogs, bla bla bla, you name it, they know it. They literally turn my parent's room into a dance studio, Y? because there is a mirror inside, give them the dance studio feeling...-_- And they started dancing to the MP3 songs played out on their hp and my HP is used to record their dance moves. hahaa..it is so hilarious. Now I have tonnes of "home made" mtvs in my hp.

Going back sch tml. Yeah. I am so looking forward to the rest of this week. :(

新年快乐~~恭喜发财~~身体健康

今年我可以说以往年有一点不同， 可能是fyp和其他的因素，我无法放开心去尽情的享受。可是,我还是会尽量的度过这个假期.

在除夕夜，和婆婆和叔叔一家人吃了团圆饭之后，我到了四马路观音庙。还好我们去的早，人潮不是很多。 在凌晨12点，我到了花市去买花。越迟去，价钱就越低。哈哈！我在赏花的当时，有一只非常可爱的小狗狗向我们走来，它似乎不怕我们，在我面前坐了下来。它还摆了一个很滑稽的姿势，真是太可爱了！






它的屁股挺得好高啊！

在凌晨11点59分，一间花店里的所有ah neh 都聚集在一起，一到12点，每个ah neh 都一起喊 HUAT AH 和丢炮炮，场面非常好笑。:)



在大年初一，和以往一样，早上和下午是我到处到亲戚的家拜年。和往年不同的是，我和我的堂弟妹们去看了半夜场，"大兵小将". 这部电影瞒好笑的, 有几幕真的让我们笑到,哈哈哈! 陈龙的搞笑武打场面，和王力宏的滑稽表情，真是让全场笑翻天．有空可要去看!

现在, 我正在忙着做准备, 做一些最后的打扫和把食物摆好. 因为每年初二, 我的亲戚都会到我家拜年. 今年他们也能看到我种的辣椒和番茄. 哈哈!

啊!打得好辛苦啊! 我希望没什么错别字. 要不然有人一定会乘机笑我的, 哈哈~~好累啊～

Drained

I am so tired and hungry. My stomach was growling so loudly when i am doing my experiment just now. I am going to eat now.

I think I have no life. Everyday revolves around my lab.

I need more spice in my life.

I need extra motivation from somewhere.

Ok I shall stop complaining. For now. Too tired to complain.

Most importantly, I got to remind myself to be more careful when driving next time. Attention attention attention please.

6 more days to CNY.

Chinese new year has always been my favourite occasion every year. Just had my first lau yu sheng yesterday at my uncle's house. Normally we will gather there on chu yi, but ever since my grandma passed away, yearly chu yi gathering at her place with all the "see once a year" relatives has stopped. However, this year all gathered 1 wk before CNY and I am truly surprised but happy at the same time.

It is good to see everyone again and of cause, my cute little cousins. haha.

I din know they love to take pics

Cute little Kayden

Little Kayden is thirsty after running around

Having such gathering brought back fond memories of me and my cousins when we were still young. We will go to my grandparents house every sunday and we will play and eat and play.

1. We used to play soccer at the garden and courtyard. But they seems so small now, maybe its because we have grown up.

2. We used to force our girl cousin to be the monkey while we are playing with the ball. haha

3. We used to play badminton or volleyball with the neighbour and use the house divider as the net. And the shuttle or ball will ALWAYS end up on the roof/drain.

4. Every week without fail, my grandpa will give us money to order pizza hut and hawaiian pizza is our all time favourite.

5. How I got chase by the dog and cried as a result. haa

6. How I played with a floor tile and it landed and broke my toenail. ( I still don't know why I played with such a thing.........)

Those were the days. Days without worries, concerns, everything seems so fun. I miss them.

Finally, I shall end with a classic photo. Young sweeper at work. :)

Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou

Trying to have a motivational title, to motivate myself to get things done.

Going back to lab after 4pm tml, I may need to do OT to get more things done. Friday will be F** day, whole day dedicated to it. Looks like it is inevitable to come back on saturdays. Who will want to come back on weekends nearing CNY. haiz. What a great build up to the upcoming CNY. :(

Career fair starts tomorrow. Hope to get some good response from the companies. I did not seemed to have a smooth path in job finding recently, either rejected or no response.

Speaking about grad trip, there is no planning yet. Seems like there is no common destination to settle on. (Although I prefer taiwan or korea). It looks likely that I will spend my grad trip in the sunny island of Singapore.

All the best to everyone and jiayou in all that we do (tests, ***, problems we faced, obstacles). Most importantly, try to be happy. (trying very hard to tell myself)

1. It broke once again. At the rate it is breaking, I think I got to come back on saturday again. Haiz

2. Ok I should be getting a new phone soon, who wanna go bugis walk walk / shop shop (no need spend $$)? haha

3. Finally, one of my chilli turn red. Ok, the only thing that got me excited in an otherwise not so brilliant day.

I always feel tired on Mondays, although my lesson starts at 10am (same as thursday) and I sleep earlier the night before. OK, I think it is just me, heavy resistance to Monday.

Yeah, first harvest of the summer :)

1. I just realized my tomato is EGG tomato, not CHERRY tomato, that explains why its so huge.

2. My hp battery is getting bad. Samsung hp is really lousy.

3. I just cooked and ate the vegetable that I grew.

4. I realised that I am bad at dressing up.

5. I realised that I am quite....dumb.

6. And I am officially engaged for the spring cleaning project which starts today.

Hope to be happier for the rest of the week.

Midas touch

My hand is so powerful, whatever I touch today, it spoils/breaks. Every time I fire my gas gun, the strain gauge breaks, and I spend 20mins mounting it back again. And this cycles repeats itself for the past few days. Than the ultimate came. Part of my bar broke just now. The chances of it breaking at that part is like almost impossible??? But it happened anyway. I hereby officially announced that I hate strain gauges.

I cross my fingers/hands/toes/legs that tomorrow will be a better day. No more new patterns please...

On a happier note, finally the renovation at my house is done. It is just completed today and already I saw one family having a BBQ and buffet just now!! They are really fast. Hope it will be my turn soon.

And when will my chilli and tomato turn red/ripe?? Faster please, I want to eat u. Thanks.

Not a v good day

1. Shag from the whole day in sch.

2. Shag from rushing a result out to show prof in the afternoon.

3. Name taken down for not wearing office attire to ST talk. Ok nvm. Wanted to take revenge by eating our stomachs out at the refreshments later. BUT TO OUR HORROR, there is not food, not even a cup of coffee or a spongecake. Ok, that made my day.

shag day, think I have not been waking up after 10am for some time already, next week shall be the same again. haiz.

Went to friend's wedding lunch just now. First wedding I have attended among my friends. Another coming up at the end of the year. Its nice to see the groom and bride being so lovey dovey. haha. All the best to them. Meet up with old friends and catch up. My cork friend is as cork as ever, always laugh till mad with him around. Recalled all the funny things that happen in navy last time, hahaha..

Reach home at around 4 plus, and took a nap, but this nap last for 4 hours and i woke up at 830pm. Normally i will be awaken by sms but this time round, i slept through without knowing it. ok maybe the beer I had just now add to my unconsciousness, haha.

Next wk is fyp week again, can i have some other entertainment to take my mind off fyp? i dun seems to be as happy with cny around the corner as compared to previous years..=|

Shag but fun day

Started my day in lab doing my fyp. As usual, more problems surface and this time its the strain gauge that is broken. aRghh. I shall settle it on monday. Had mac for lunch and this is the first time ever that I felt so stress while eating mac. The reason being this is my first time eating MEGA McSpicy and I have camera pointing at me from all angles to capture my unglam look...including live video..:(...(yes py...stop giggling ok..haha) Ended the lab session with gossip session, its fast becoming a norm, but its quite fun i should say..hahaha

Went to prof shim's house in the evening. Took me quite some time to locate the place although it is so near my house! DUMB me. Heard new gossips and some unbelievable things that happen. And something stupid and paiseh happened to me, wah, sian 1/4. I love kids and had fun with the kids and babies there, think I interact more with ppl under the age of 12..haha.

ok i realise that uploading pictures here takes years, so i decided to upload onto facebook than. :)

Yea, finally i can see some progress in the renovation of the poolside and bbq area downstairs. I have not swam since the pool was down for renovation last nov, i want to swim badly!! The bbq area looks, mmm.. nicer than before I hope. Looking forward to the first bbq session when the renovation is done, who wants to bbq? =)

FYP sucks, more work to be done. I hate it when one problem is solved today and another new one crops up tomorrow. Worst still, the 1st problem is not solved and the second appears. Argh!! Got to just face it.

I have a new mp3 player again... Now i do not know what to do with it. Who is in need of a mp3 player??

(ok..yeah..3rd post..not bad not bad...:]...)

I hate people who are fake, people who lie without batting an eye.

(Not bad uh...a second post in as many days..=)...)

this is my 1st post.

i'm waiting for joe.

joe is free.